I’m a content creator of years dealing with hate, i wanna end it
Hi, i truly hope everyone reading this is safe and at peace.
I’m going to start by saying ive been making content for many years now, ive never once received anything from it , except feeling very proud of the work i did, i love taking photos of products and making commentary and review videos online, i created accounts on multiple social media platforms using my creator handle name, connected accounts on facebook, and especially instagram and youtube etc, they are public, and my main topics are in a semi-niche community, and i shared lots of information on said products, lost media , others have learned from my content etc, i have brought to the table: content, mostly kindness and contribution…i have showcased support to other creators in the space, given shout outs, and ive never received it back, which in itself is fine, however, all i wanted was simple human respect, no jealousy in my community, no crazy nonsense or drama or rudeness…and i have tried being respectful but honest too, then i recall this is the internet and simply being what i see as correct isn’t the same for all and people do not care about mental health…
I haven’t usually shown my face online, but during the times i have , i now regret that fear i always had, incase someone screenshot it, or has it saved, as i am now dealing with a content creator who seems to be starting out, adamant to grow, they are from another country and continent, and are obsessively stalking me online, they have made weird posts about ridiculous stuff when all i ever was, was nice to them, and when i finally made a post exposing their behaviour, after enough harassment was enough, they blew up, and started making full-on hate posts publicly about me, stitching photos of me on stuff etc, all of this is public on their account.
I reported this all and the websites dont remove any of it, every day i wake up to another instagram account posting about the drama, or a twitter post sharing the post i made exposing the creep and his hateful response…my accounts as a content creator are public, otherwise i wouldn’t get to share my work, if i made them private , i am sure id give him amo to post about, you see the paranoia and fear i now live in?
I have worked so hard behind the scenes on some really amazing images i was scheduling months prior to all of this , to post, im really proud of how they turned out, but now my mental health is really bad, ive been dealing with shit in my real life , deep shit i cannot even simply talk to a therapist too cause it costs money and i am in a conservative town, and content creating was my form of escapism, now i just…
i dont know, honestly i dont like the community i am part of, i wanna speak out , but if i do, if i message people i seem like a baby whining, or dramatic, so is silence my only option? Literally “suffer in silence” , i keep seeing hate posts about me that are completely defamatory, and i cant do anything about it , in person in real life, people are seeing me miserable, its even affecting my already unwell mother, and i am even suici-dal , so i just, i need human empathy and some words of wisdom…reddit isnt the best place either but its all ive got… :( now what do i do with the work i had lined up? And what of my online name that has now been linked to a psycho user , fml…
And i have them blocked, ive gone back and fourth mentally on if i should unblog and just ask for mercy that they remove the hate posts but i believe from their behaviour profile, that this creator will just mock it even more and then block me back.