It's just been 2 days
It's been only 2 days I reinstalled TikTok and I watched almost only horror, I reached the farlands, I saw horrific videos about a guys sh00ting himself, and lots of "Minecraft but if i take damage i will be sk1nned alive" (i know these are fake cuz the guy did many of them but i cant get the screams out of my head) with disturbing sounds of a guys suffering. I now experience insomnia, depersonalisation, and im just thinking about these videos all day long until i can finally watch them again because, it's a fact, i like being terrified, it's the only thing that makes me feels alive again. I said "reinstalled" cuz I had tiktok 2 years ago and i felt the same way but the videos i was watching were "encouraging" me to hurt myself. I didnt learnt the lesson and did it again several times including now. Last thing, I am very unstable and I can relapse quickly, so my experience can be different.
So please if you're a mom, a psy or anyone, warn the teens around you, prevent them before they feel the need to watch these videos.
