finding an old creator from 2020ish

I’ve been trying to remember the name of a TikTok creator I followed back around 2020–2021, and it’s been driving me crazy because I can’t find her anywhere.

She documented her recovery from addiction, and I’m pretty sure it was fentanyl, although cocaine may have been involved too. She posted a lot of sobriety updates, and I remember one relapse in particular where she was really emotional about having to start her day count over. I remember everyone in the comments rooting for her and wanting her to succeed.

From what I remember, she was a young woman in the U.S. with dirty blonde hair, blue eyes, heavy dark eye makeup, a nose ring (and maybe an eyebrow piercing?), and what I now think were skin-picking scars on her face. She was very thin and usually filmed videos alone in her bedroom or around her house. I also vaguely remember LED lights in her room and maybe an orange/pink tapestry in the background, but I could definitely be wrong about that.

She also posted before-and-after pictures from before addiction, and I remember thinking how much brighter and happier her eyes looked before everything.

I know this isn’t a ton to go on, but I’ve wondered how she’s doing for years now. If any of this sounds familiar or you think you know who I’m talking about, I’d really appreciate it!